The vital box -- Becoming an invalid -- Awareness of evanescence -- Why don't we move to assisted living? -- Retirement : the precise moment of decision -- Setbacks and renewed hopes -- Staring at the sun, once again -- Whose death is this anyway? -- Facing endings -- Considering physician-assisted suicide -- A tense countdown to Thursday -- A complete surprise -- So now you know -- Death sentence -- Farewell to chemotherapy-and to hope -- From palliative care to hospice -- Hospice care -- A soothing illusion -- French books -- The end approaches -- Death arrives -- The after-death experience -- Life as an independent separate adult -- Home alone -- Sex and grief -- Unreality -- Numbness -- Help from Schopenhauer -- Denial revealed -- Stepping out -- Indecisiveness -- On reading my own work -- Seven advanced lesson on the therapy of grief -- My education continues -- Dear Marilyn.